...sometimes things just meant not to be huh?...

i have waited for you tonight but you never show up,well,literally not right in front of me but somehow i hope you did.I did counted,it's been 3hours and still in counting as im writing this post for you..

i sat down and laid back for a moment to think about stuff and i somehow i can't imagine how the road right in front of us would be.But that doesn't mean that im afraid to pursue and hoping that we can make this through because the two of us,its like heaven and earth..You're like that person standing on top there,somewhere,free to chase all your wildest dream but im like the person who all the way down right on the dirt and have to work hard to make my dreams come true..

it's like we both been tore between two world?somehow someday you'll mind about this but who am i to judge you.So will you?

Lately,i feel im a lost person.i lost my inspiration to love,i lost my way to freedom and i lost my way to like you even though i want to?i know you told me how much you hate me telling all this and comparing both us but seriously,who is Adlan?i know i'll make you mad by telling you all those things but i hope that you'll let adlan be there to put a sweet smile back on for you, because you know you kills me every time when you smile,it just stopped my heart maybe for a second as well...

I was listening to a song from Baby Face,Every time i Close my Eyes and there this line from the song i would like you to know,its like the song sings the those words that i wanted to say to you..

"Every time i close my eyes i thank the lord that i got you,
and you got me too..
And every time i think of it i wish i was...i don't believe its true,
That someone like you loves me too.."

Well,we haven't reach the 'love' level but sorry,there no song singing 'like' kut since it doesn't rhymes haha i wish i could see you right now and if you're standing right in front me,i wouldn't want you to leave me,ever.i don't want to pretend that i'm glad you went away from me because if you do,i'll be dying inside of me...

..it's that time of year when they all go seperate ways...

aite..i have no idea why im blogging about this but deal with me people,i have been listening to a few break up stories and i have no idea why they find me when they facing this problems but they do sigh..its depressing to listens to all this but when they need someone to listens to their problems,adlan will be there eventually xD..Sometimes i even think that my past relationship was a failure myself..Oh well,im going to tell 3short stories and no worries people,i'll tell the synopsis kay? =)...

Story 1 : Is age is just a number?well,for my friend here it is because she fall in love with this guy who is twice her age!!yes people,I'm not kidding about this..She met this fella some time back then and she fall for him as soon as she see him and I'm surprise that "Love in first sight" still happened in this era huh?well,despite all the advices her friends gave her she just ignore it because many of them think she won't get anything out of this..But at times she just felt that she is the one who is falling in love and don't think this fella is loving her at all xD..But after thinking over it,she doesn't mind and still want to continue with what she is doing now and to me,i felt that is such a pity thing to do when you love someone and don't even think he loves you back sigh...well,love is blind isn't it??all i can do is wish you luck in whatever you're doing..

Story 2 : There is no guarantee that you'll live life together even having years of relationship..This couple,both of them are my friends and the guy always think that his girl neglect him with her busy study schedules and assignments (i guess it's normal in college life) till one fine day he can't take it no more,he ended the 5years relationship he had and surprisingly to me,he hook up with a student exchange from Switzerland because he thinks this new girl knows him better than his ex xD..One thing bugging my mind about couples this day is why do you hook up with a person if you never think that she is the one for you and that consists of that person loves you and knows you well??sigh..its such a pity scenario to think of actually xD..and one day his ex called me up to know why he reacts this way so after explaining everything her she broke to tears (gosh,how i hate girls crying) on the phone and she regrets for what she done and really wants him back so badly but i guess after you loose something,its hard to get it back the way you wanted it...so people,'treasure' is the word.

Story 3 : Do anyone trust in long distance relationship?If to people who don't im sorry to say you all are bullshit-ing xD..Loving a person is also about trusting someone so what is the problem?Oh well,back to the story...it all happened when my this friend got back from aussie for her holidays...When the first time i got to know they were together,i was happy because to me,they were the couple made in heaven and to just simplify things,the guy is willing to go all the way to pick her up and the girl is willing to jump over her house gate to go out with him =)..well,when its time for her to go back to aussie,the both of them was still fine but as time goes by,the guy feeling the loneliness without her by his side so as all humans make mistakes,he have another girl..somehow he thought the aussie girl didn't know about it (actually she knew it all along) and when she ask,he keeps denying till one day he can't deny no more and he told the truth and once a perfect relationship he had just clashed right in front of his eyes and he i know,he never felt so regret in his life losing something till that day...Oh well,humans never feel regret losing something they treasure or love till they loose it and even one of my friend said about him that "His heart belongs to the aussie girl but his body belongs to the malaysian girl" (sorry,i can't mention any names so hope you all still understand the stories aite?)..

Well well,that is the conclusion of my 3 sad love stories and to me,having a relationship or even loving someone is not that hard actually..Once upon a time i did have a relationship that somehow along the road it turn sour and even myself back then and i couldn't let her go till somehow i thought it through,even though its hard to let go someone you love but for the good of both people,letting her go and wish her all the best for her life is the only best options you left actually =)...Love to me is like a "two way traffic",you need both people to love/care/trust each other and i hate about people being with each other just for 'BENEFITS'..What the hell,you're being together for just benefits?im not going to elaborate about the 'benefits' terms and hope you people understand what benefits was i talking about...To me,nothing guarantees you'll be forever with the girl you're in a relationship so i will treasure every moment or every seconds being together with her and not forgetting loving that very person with all your heart,as much as you can possibly give because to me,that's the least i could do and give her...

...guess who is coming to town??...

aite,the team i have been supported since i was 10 is coming here to Malaysia and im PRETTY excited about it because i kind of miss them the last time when they visited a few years and "HELL NO!!!" im gonna miss them this time round haha..So yupp,i went all the way to curve hoping to get some tickets but after rounding from curve to cineleisure,there was no tickets so i opted to go pyramid since there is another store over there selling it as well =P...i have to apologise to my mom for troubling you here and there just to get those tickets but THANKS MOM!!!...finally i got it but it was the RM68 INSTEAD OF THE rm98 that i wanted and when the sale guy point where will i be seating is like SUPER far behind xD...i think i'll be seeing some tiny ppl playing on the field sigh..that's why im not very satisfy with it but oh well,lets see what i can do with it...

...pulut cenndol...

Oh well people,im sorry for the late update but have been QUITE busy and lazy as well haha..so yupp,lots of people been craving for sweet things at times and when they are,usually they'll visit places like the famous ice-cream baskin robins or some dessert place in the shopping mall but lately i found a lovely yet tasty dessert that locate very nearby to the place i work.That dessert would be our famous local Cendol =)..i know this cendol thing sound kinda plain or normal but the different about this cendol is they have pulut in it and they pour the gula melaka right on top of it so every bite of it will be sweet as candy and it goes along well with slurp of the cendol after eating it lolz..Crap,speaking of it make me craving for it but seriously for those who kinda forget hows the taste of cendol PLEASE PLEASE go and try...its our BEST local dessert for me haha And to people who have no idea what is 'PuLut',im sorry,i have no idea how to explain haha it's the rice thingy when you eat sushi =)

...me an animal lover???...

aite,to those who know me well enough they'll be knowing that adlan is actually an animal lover and honestly i love to own a dog but just because im an islam and it be wrong to do so and due to that,i just have to let go my interest in owning a dog sigh...but it's okay,i still can play around with chun lim's mood swing/crazy dog whenever i visit him at his place hehe..oh well,i have this guinea pig as a pet which i got it as a mother's day gift last year and yes people,i got my mom a guinea pig as a gift and it was random and something unusual lolz..i got it when it was 3months old and it look tiny back then but a year have gone now and somehow the guinea pig celebrate her birthday the other day (gods know how??) and it look rather 'sihat' in other words lolz..not many of my friends have seen it and just ryan chan and steven i guess haha No worries people,my guinea pic is a vegetarian and she don't eat meat,why she became that huge??No idea,ask my mom...

..to my supermom =)..

oh well,i might be QUITE late for posting this mother's day wish for my mom and it's not like my mom will ever read this!!sigh...it's okay,eventhough she won't be reading this but im just going to blog about it anyway..it's been almost 19years you been taking care of me and i know i MAY not be the super perfect son a great mother like you deserve to have but at least i know i tried my best as a son to love,care and be there for you at all times..Honestly i know myself is a tough nut to crack and all those advices you often gave to me i used to take it not seriously (it's like one ear in and one ear out haha come on!!who don't when it comes to your parents LOOONNG lecture sigh) but i know it's for my own good and i'll try to live with it kay??Thanks for constantly be there for me all the time despite rain or shine and even helped me out when i landed myself into difficult situation..i know my friends used to make fun of me once upon a time ago (actually now they STILL do!!!) about my mom always being around EVEN in high school but come on people,she just care about me cuz im like the only son kut so yupp,screw you all who don't understand haha...I used to get offended when people tend to call me a "momma's boy (it's kinda my nickname actually)" but after thought it through,im a son who loves/care for his mother and i don't see why i should get mad with people who try to make fun of me lolz..Zai was one of them who used to make fun of me but check this out people,i think he is much more a 'momma's boy' than i am since he listens way TOO much to his mom lolz..He even have to lie to his mom to club or lepak malam and i guess his favourite line "mama tak sporting la!!!" works when he kantoi with his mom haha And not forgetting Michael Cheah as well,which son out there who have the nerve to scold their mom a "!#*%-ing B@*^h" through the phone??!!!..you guys are real funny at times haha oh lets not jump of the topic and this post is specially for my supermom and you deserve all the joy is this world and enjoy this special day...

"Happy Mother's Day Mom!!!"

...boys and their toys...

oh well,every kid when they're young have a dream to do something rather supid and that same goes to little adlan here back in the days lolz..aite,i admit when i was a kid i was a fan of all those ultraman and power rangers but come on people!!!Everyone watch them in the tv shows and will be pretending they're one of those power rangers running around the house screaming and yelling of course xD...okay,now i realise how dumb i look when i was a kid but i'm PRETTY sure everyone doing the same kut haha..well,i did remember telling my mom back then when i was 5 that one day i wanna ride a bike to school and don't wanna trouble her sending and picking me up.My mom was laughing like mad and i assume she thought how cute her son was telling her all this or maybe the other way round,is my son mad or something??haha..So my dream of having a bike didn't just end there when i was 5year old and carried on till i reach high school and i still remember the day when i turn 16 which i was legal to have a motorcycle license,i went back home and told my mom that i wanted to get a motorcycle license but before i could end my sentence she said "NO!!"..sigh..can you believe this??I didn't even finish with what i was saying and she strictly declining me xD..Oh well,sometime i find my friends like kim liew and some other guys are lucky to have the oppurtunity to ride a bike and well,eventhough i can't drive a bike but i can curi-curi ride it =P..haha So yupp,i always ask my friend whether i can ride their bike when they driving it,even one round around the school can make me one happy boy..i have no idea why but the feeling when you're on that bike is just "FUN" and you feel the "THRILL" of course lolz...

p.s.*my dream motorcycle would be a nice old school scooter*..

...whats mine is yours as well...

firstly,this post is specially for
you Wan Fatin Irina or simply known by everyone as Lynn hehe yea,what the??the name is like way different from each other lolz..aite,i owe a lot to this girl and she is the one who help me out when everything in my world seems to stumble down on me and i personally not a very strong person to cope with failures and without her advices,im not very sure i can actually stand back on my feet and move on with my life.She was there to witness everything and how things progress between me and baiti in the past and i think she is the only one who know the truth what happened between us xD..and well,from a friend of my ex-gf to my emo partner now and what more can i ask from you yang?? =)..you the only person i think i have owe so much that i don't even know howta repay to you sigh...all those time you was there to listens to my sorrows and you didn't actually turn away from me but still layan me instead,honestly im amazed..you were baiti's best friend and who is adlan to you back then??you didn't just walk away and you understand me so well..Oh well,look where it brought us today?Even with you thousand miles away from where i am,we still feel dat closeness that we had when you're back in Malaysia hehe..I know its hard to cope with all those time difference and me and my working timing but amazingly we did!!..lolz yes i'll remember that the quote that we came out with "what is mine is yours and what is yours is mine as well" and that was sweet of you haha This post is specially for you and i want to say a million "thank you" for all you have done for me and all those time you wasted on me too..i can't wait for you to be back in june and the lepak-ing routine with najee,anis and zan will be back like usual haha..you take care now and remember this,someone always will be missing you here in malaysia..